little holly loo.

Everywhere in Kentucky. In MARCH, Jeff and I spent spring break doing a Tour de Kentucky. We did this because we didn’t really have the money to go to Florida because I had gotten a ticket right before break. However, all the gas I spent driving from NKy to Taylorsville to Bowling Green to Ashland to Shepherdsville to Taylorsville and then back to NKy would have been just as much as going to Florida. It was a lot of fun though.

February was partly an amazing month and also the worst month of my entire life.

In February, I told Jeff that I loved him.

In February, we also did the banana surprise thing.  

In February, I went to St. Louis and had an amazing time and reallly developed my leadership skills at AFLV.

In February, I had to withdraw from my teaching practicum because of something stupid that I did. The repercussions of this caused me to to fail a class and have to add another semester so I could repeat the course. At the time, this was a pretty emotional event, but now I have grown so much and learned from this mistake. I needed an eye opener so I would start taking my education more seriously.

Christmas break has inspired me to get started with blogging again. Looking at all my previous posts, I feel like I don’t suck at it :) 

So follow my group’s tumblr!

I made this really crappy video lol.

 http://observingthereal.tumblr.com/post/36862184458/our-group-interview-of-a-local-business-in-over- I edited this video ha ha. It’s for a grade!

Needing and wanting to talk about big issues but not being close enough to talk about them.

Hey babe, I hope you slept well. You deserve a good night of sleep. I hope your feet are feeling better, cause you need all soak up all the walking you can over there. I watched your video. haha, I saw you run back and fourth. I really really really miss you. You’re one of best people to talk to. I’m glad we have the technology we have now so we can talk but I miss it in person ya know. I love you! You’re the perfect girlfriend for me. I mean just look at your profile picture :) that says it all right there. You know, long distance can be rough sometimes, I have a mind that is focused on seeing you after school. I look so forward to the weekends. Like I was saying, it’s nice to get out of bowling green world sometimes. It’s nice going somewhere different with different people ya know. The long trips don’t bother me. I can’t wait to start a new chapter with us holly once school is out. To be able to spend whatever amount of time together is really nice to know. You’re like one of the only people that seem to be fully interested in what I talk about and that is something I really respect from you. I don’t have a lot of people who really take in what I talk about or what I care about. You listen and I like that. I love you so much. I hope you’re having a good time, I understand the rain can put a bummer on things so I’m glad it cleared up for you today. I don’t understand why things have been making me snap, just to let you know it’s not just you. I swear… I think youre cool, funny, successful, and funny. You don’t make fun of people… You’re really amazing Holly. I’m a mix between tired and not feeling too hot, but I’m getting emotional. haha. It’s 12 now, and I have to work at 6. I love you!!! Have a good day tomorrow. BTW, I work 6 to 130 and I plan to volunteer. If I do, I’ll be home around 530ish. So we can talk then. If I don’t I’ll probably go to the gym, so I’ll be home around 3 or 4 then. so we can talk then too. any thing that I do I hope your able to talk during those times. Good morning when you get this!

God. I love him.Thisis what gets me through the hard days. It’s not easy being in a different culture where I am constantly reminded that I am an outsider. London is amazing, but admist all this exotic (to me, at least) new things, Ineedsomething, or someone, to keep me grounded. This is what Jeff is to me. He reminds me to take in each day and appreciate it but to remember I have a lot of great things waiting for me at home.

Before I left, we had a long talk about the dynamics of our relationship. Something had to change in order for our relationship to work. This past week Jeff surprised me and really rose to what I was asking for. I wasn’t asking him to change anything, but to just try to look at it a little differently. I don’t want him to feel obligated to be home at 4-6 everyday to skype with me. I want him towantto talk to me, to want to tell me about his day and hear about mine. If something exciting happens, I want to tell him about it and I want him to want to hear about it. That’s what being in a relationship is all about, having that person who always cares what you have to say and indulges you even when they don’t. I think he finally realized what I meant because I can see a huge difference. Sending me messages like this or little ones throughout the day and making time to skype with me is all that I wanted. I can’t know that he cares about me unless he shows it. We are in a long distance relationship. It takes a little more effort. I am really lucky to have such an amazing guy who is willing to put in the effort and appreciates me and what I do. I know what I have and I’m thankful that I have him.